''Honestly, it was a little embarrassing because no one really understands that part, right? It's easy to say, «Oh, my leg is broken or this and that.» When you're explaining that stuff, no one understands or only a certain amount of people understand. I just mentally was done. I almost lost my mind. That's hard, I didn't exactly know what was going on. I lost my mind, to be honest, being on those medications. Even coming off them was worse, off the benzos. It was tough. I felt horrible for Jersey too to put them in a bad spot. I wanted to be there and go and win a Stanley Cup. But the position I was in, I wouldn't have been much help.''